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  • Something fun

    July 5th, 2019

    Hey folks – I’ve got me a random little idea.

    You listen to the bastard title? Cool. You like some of these writers? Double cool.

    Now prove it. Hit me up on Twitter with a pic of you with any of my former guests books AND drop a review for them. You do that and I’ll send you a free, signed book from yours truly.

    NOW GO LISTEN. I’ll tally what I’ve got on 7/12 and announce winners then. Use the hashtag #thebastardtitle to enter.

     

  • Pimping Ain’t Easy

    June 21st, 2019

    Love to the very awesome Kristopher Zgorski for having me over at his site, BOLO Books. I always appreciate his kindness.

    That said, I’ve got something on my mind – the strange tightrope act that is promotion.

    I’d like to say that this isn’t necessarily about self-promotion, but ultimately this game does boil down to that. What are the decisions to make when the long term goal is raising one’s stock. What kind of weird shit do you have to grok and agonize over for a return? I don’t think I’m off base when I say that whatever move a serious writer (and when I say serious, I mean the type of person looking to make a little cash or grow their influence, so really EVERY writer) makes in regards to their “platform” is entirely colored by these questions and more. Building that promotional platform as a marginalized writer makes it even more haphazard.

    I know this because I agonize about plenty of my own promotional decisions. My focus, though, might be difference than most writers. A lot of that having to do with the fact that yes, gasp, I am a marginalized writer. I am of a group that it can be fashionable to boost and have an ethnicity that I can absolutely exploit to my advantage.

    And like I said before, it becomes a weird tightrope act. One that I believe is navigable by beginning to really understand that while, yes, there are certainly selfish reasons to build your platform on representation and boosting of marginalized voices, there’s a level of honesty that must come with it or else it’s entirely performative.

    I can’t in good faith exploit my background. I’ve spent too long self-loathing and willingly detached from that world. I’m also keenly aware that there are plenty of others who will judge me or exploit me because of that very same background! It sucks, but it’s true. So what do I do? How do I make up for my own inadequacies while doing something I believe AND ensuring that my own efforts to become something I love aren’t wasted?

    Simple: be honest. I can only do so much, but I can do something. I can boost the voices I know and I can work to expose myself to others I don’t (in a completely legal way, hardy-har-har). I can make sure as many voices as possible rise up with me or celebrate when they pass me by a country mile. It’s OK – all the boats will rise in time.

    We also can’t succeed on the backs of others. Simply chasing those further along the road isn’t a path to success. While it’s nice to celebrate and boost those who do well, we have to think about our motives. Are you shouting out that writer who landed an awesome deal because you’re happy for him/her or are you looking for a blurb? Are you cool with boosting your platform with tissue paper? Because that’s what you’re doing if your intent is the latter. Quid pro quo is nice (and sometimes entirely realistic) but if you’re planning on basing your career on it, good luck. You’re sort of getting the Death Star plans with none of the details that way (oh look, there’s nothing on those hand-me-down schematics about exhaust port issues, ah well).

    I mean, look at what can happen when you depend on performative people to help boost your stock. It’s a disaster.

    I think it’s important we craft a community that better understands that idea. That performative wokeness or working for the benefit of the individual isn’t supported. That mindset is why we’re so woefully under and misrepresented still. We are not in this alone and we can’t continue acting that way.

    Success isn’t going to be found with our lips on a boot or our nose up anyone else’s ass. Nobody wants to hang with anyone who smells like butt. WHY DO YOU WANT TO SMELL LIKE A BUTT?

    Promote other writers. Promote yourself. Remember to own your reasons why and remember that the road to hell is paved in good intentions.

    Go buy my book, though.

     

  • The Turn

    June 13th, 2019

    When I was in freshman year of high school, I hung out with a lot of the kids from my bus stop. My mom bought a beauty parlor with money saved and moved us to a more affluent section of the Bronx from where I’d grown up. The neighborhood demo was very Italian and Polish. Nothing new for me since I already went to school with a very diverse mix of kids, but there was a fucking canyon between being in a school with these kids and living among them.

    Anyway, I’d made friends. A bunch of twerpy nerds like me. We talked video games and sports. Standard 14-year old shit. I felt comfortable. High School wasn’t going to be so bad.

    Then the “turn” happened.

    If you’re part of a marginalized group, you might know what I’m talking about, but I’ll explain a little more because this piece is not for my fellow Latinx, POC, or LGBTQ+ peers.

    I don’t remember the specifics, but a debate came up on the bus ride home. Since we were teenagers, it was probably something dumb, but it was boisterous and loud. Eventually, one person on the losing end of the argument starts getting their balls busted—in this case, we’ll go with “Greg”—and said loser gets heated. Where I’m from it’s no big deal. You bust balls back, it’s all done. Nobody offended mothers, and nobody threw hands.

    But Greg was mad. Greg was especially mad at me because out of the goddamn blue, completely after all the arguing and ball busting was done, Greg turned to me and said:

    “Why don’t you shut the fuck up, you stupid spic?”

    Being on a bus, we could assume I was not the only spic in Greg’s vicinity, but guess what? I was.

    I won’t get into the post script here. We’ll say Greg learned not to say that word ever again in earshot of me. My point is that turn.

    You’ve overstepped an invisible line. You had the gall to treat them as an equal and debate them on a level playing field. You had the absolute balls to even discuss a thing, no matter what that thing is.

    Hence, the “turn”. It’s the look of disdain as the drunk MAGA uncle “Clues you in on a few things.” or gives you a little bit of the old “Let me explain to you how the world works.”. It’s the Twitter thread where a mutual decides, “You’re misinformed.” or “I have plenty of ***** friends that don’t feel that way.” It’s the moments where you don’t know what you’re talking about or you’re not seeing both sides of the argument. You’re too emotional. Too political. Too other.

    So the turn happens. And that turn isn’t always accompanied by toxic racial or ethnic epithets, as mentioned. It’s more than that, it’s a hidden arrogance, a sense of propriety that’s always been there waiting for the very moment “you” went out of your place. Because, see, it’s OK for you to exist in a way where you are always less than them, but if there’s a goddamn hint of that scale going level, oh no, time to cut you off at the legs.

    Imagine needing to always be prepared for this. To know that every interaction in social circles can spin this way. The answer, in the turner’s mind, is for you to know your place and shut the fuck up. To merely exist as window dressing; piping in when appropriate and favorable to the turner’s experiences. Earn sympathy or empathy but never equity—that would be crazy!

    The other choice? To stop caring. To stand by the principles you’ve set for yourself the same as anyone else.It’s difficult to get to that place, especially when you are trying to navigate your way through institutions built entirely around the premise that you are meant to be an outsider always; a light palate cleanser between courses of the exact same dish.

    There’s the popular adage “be the change you want to see” that gets used against marginalized folks a lot these days. The phrase’s new meaning basically boils down to, “Shut up.” which is entirely dependent on everyone’s inclination to, well, not act. That said, speaking is an action as valid as anything (fuck’s sake, it’s the go to dialogue tag in writing) and speaking can be a larger motivator of change than any donation or punch. The very courage to speak, that IS the change some people need to be before the next step is made.

    Ultimately, the turn will come either way. Let it be for something worth it.

  • In Da Club

    June 1st, 2019

    You ever stand outside in line to get into a popular club or bar? Maybe a restaurant, something really cool and trendy that all your friends just rave about?

    Here’s a scene for you. You’re waiting on the line. It’s crawling. You see folks bypassing and getting the VIP status, but that’s fine. You’re just here to have a good time with friends, maybe celebrate a birthday. Normal stuff.

    So you get to the door. The doorman barely looks your way and says, “Sorry, wrong shoes.” You look at your shoes. Look at everyone else’s shoes. You even take a peek at the doorman’s shoes and sure enough, not a fucking difference between any of them except yours are red versus everyone else’s green. Well, shit, you think, I got green shoes in my car. So you get off the line, get your green shoes, and get back on line.

    Back to the door. “Sorry, that jacket’s not allowed. Wrong brand.”

    Well, now this is some bullshit. The jacket is exactly the same as everyone else’s except there’s a logo on the lapel that’s circular instead of triangular. Barely noticeable! You don’t have another jacket, though. This is the jacket you’ve worn to anywhere else like this and it’s never done you wrong.

    So you beg. You plead. You mention that you have friends inside. That you’re not the type to cause trouble. You say you’ll go out and get the right jacket next time, hell, maybe they have one inside that you can borrow just for the night. You’re desperate and it shows.

    So the doorman, still not looking you in the eye but smiling at everyone else walking on by, says he’ll check. Sure enough, there’s a lost jacket and it’s two sizes too small. You figure, fuck it, just for the night, it’ll be fine. You tear off your jacket, cram yourself into that accepted one like Sunday sausage, and FINALLY, you’re let in.

    You make it six steps into the club until you’re shoulder to shoulder with everyone else. Nobody’s moving. Nobody can dance or get a drink. You notice all those VIPs were walking into another vestibule with a staircase leading up to a very roomy space. You turn and spot a club across the street playing the same damn music and with no doorman, no dress code. People are having fun.

    Loose metaphors, but I have a point. This is the modern publishing industry for the marginalized writer. Fit the template to get six steps in, but uh oh, you’re not unique enough. That’s for other people.

    What I’m trying to say is: don’t beg at the door to get six steps into a club you’ll never dance in. Go to the next club or sneak in through the goddamn back door. Don’t ever destroy yourself to live up to anyone’s expectations but your own.

    Because when you’re wearing a jacket two sizes too fucking small, my friends, everyone will notice.

    source
    I miss Chris Farley
  • “Mosely”(sic) Harmless

    May 17th, 2019

    Oh boy, where to start with this one.

    Not about to point fingers, just a summary. Someone had the bright idea to post an essay under a pseudonym that was basically a toothless tone policing piece to marginalized writers. It was a political, and generally overwritten, piece that contradicted itself within a handful of paragraphs and came off as pretty pretentious. Like, 100% written from a place of privilege.

    So, to that pseudonymous author, if you were legit wearing internet blackface to prevent criticism, maybe take a class or something – you did a really bad job and it was stupidly obvious to anyone a shade darker than bone white.

    Also, I must reiterate. It is Walter Mosley. M-O-S-L-E-Y. Not hard to remember how to spell a living legend’s name. Pretty sure you wouldn’t have an issue spelling Lawrence Block (just saying).

    THAT SAID.

    Let’s talk a little bit about the damage bullshit tone policing can do (especially in a tight knit community while being a coward that hides behind the anonymity afforded to you). See, people are talking now. DMs and texts are flying back and forth. Some folks piecing this little mystery together. Some folks agreeing with you and disagreeing with you. Some folks saying, “And of course, Angel’s chiming in” (I know this and still, somehow, I open my yap. Take a think about how much I give a shit about your opinion – seriously, go for it. You might get scared.).

    But all these whispers can cause extra drama. It can cause arguments among friends and even further strain already strained relationships. Our actions have consequences and if we’re ready to face them and, you know, actually use our names when we vomit out our opinions, we need to be ready to face those consequences and accept the responsibility. You might think it isn’t a big deal, but you never know when you’re the straw that breaks the camel’s back. Maybe it’s better to not be that person? Call me crazy.

    I have my own theories about our pseudonymous genius, and while I wouldn’t air them publicly, I’m pretty fucking sure you’ll read this. I’m also pretty sure you’re feeling pretty clever. That’s good. I’ve said it before: sometimes sad people need to keep that mental health check. You do you.

    What I cannot abide by is the subtext – the mockery of those who’ve put their necks out, explicitly women of color in our community. You want to mock someone, grow a pair and mock me openly. I promise I can handle shit. And this is not in any way to demean the strength of my friends in this community. I know they got shit on lock too, but they’ve had enough to deal with. I haven’t. I can use the entertainment.

    As for Penzler and Fairstein (I’m not going to bother to look up how to spell her scummy ass name), no they should be called out. We should always call out people who will go the extra mile to make misery in the lives of marginalized; ESPECIALLY those who have profited for decades off of that misery. It’s entirely possible to call out the bullshit, to be an ally, AND get a piece of this imaginary pie you cited.

    Because if you were marginalized or a real ally you’d know, and to paraphrase a little pop culture reference, the pie’s a goddamn lie.

    Be easy.

     

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